Hi guys,
A little about me, I'm 24 years old. My struggle has always been with binging. I realized this recently in the last few months that my eating was just out of control. I also now have put the pieces together. First it went from restricting my sweets and anything relating to carbs (cereal, oatmeal, breads, pasta)..i didn't allow myself any of that. Then it started..eating healthy and super light foods..then at night in secret..allll the bad stufff i wanted. It was out of control. It lead to purging on occasion as well. Some time did go by where I finally stopped the purging, because I stopped binging at night.

At the point I am at this very moment, I feel like I'm finally aware of my body and that I've been so horrible to it. I'm trying something new and I'd like to eat healthy (like what healthy people eat, oatmeal, rice..bread, ect). My goal is to lose weight and I'm in my first week of eating better. I actually incorporated oatmeal and sweet potato (to have carbs). And I feel like I'm gaining. I'm very discouraged. I'm trying the 6 meals a day..lean meats, veggies, the good carbs (quinoa, oatmeal, brown rice)..some protein powder. I do workout to videos and run. But this very moment I am high anxiety because my clothes are fitting really tight and it's almost like I can feel the bum and boobies getting big (they have). Am I impatient? I don't understand. It's heartbreaking because the voice tells me to hang in there, and another "GO off Carbs! Salads, chicken and egg whites only"..but I can't live like that. Any advice? :(